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Wednesday, August 18th, 2004
3:34 pm	Beer flavored tits. I'm highly satisfied with the way my day has started off, I called Mike at 10:00 and he didnt have to work so we talked untill like, 2:40.. then chris cassie brent and scottie came over, which realy realy made me feel happy.. :] Now im going to work :] to see all my little darlings <3 larer.. Current Mood: touched Current Music: tornado (4 Comments |Comment on this)
10:52 am	tati makes my day, everyday. Tati Typed: no no no...I love you. Auto response from hasAmoldyroom: watching law & order SVU and smoking a bowl, then going to bed.. night cock suckers. <3linzy i<3tati Tati Typed: a lot Tati Typed: you'll never fucking know Tati Typed: how much I love sharing ciggs. with you and us making weird food, and us hunting for pot and us talking and smoking pot with my brother Tati Typed: and us pulling our pants up all the way and running around the block and scaring people Tati Typed: and us telling everyone we smoke crack Tati Typed: YOU'LL NEVER EVER EVER EVER FUCKING KNOW!!!!!!! Tati Typed: <33333333333333! x87563982562985297365982 Current Mood: grateful Current Music: suck it (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 16th, 2004
9:34 pm	I HAD SUCH AN INTERESTING WEEKEND.. IF YOU DONT READ AND COMMENT THEN YOU'RE LAME... SATURDAY: I didn't sleep friday night cause i was so damn excited to see mike, So I get online, at like, 6:30 AM and so Josh and Renae came over at about 7:00.. and we hung out on my porch and then went to Brittanys cause josh is crazy and wanted to TRY and wake her up.. but noone answered the door. Anyways, then I took a few hits off renaes bowl and they dropped me off. Then Mike comes over at about.. 1:20ish.. and we spent the entire day to ourselves..<3 heres some new pics of us.. being lame. <3 this is just a normal cute pic aye.. sep the contrast is annoyingly high Being goofy ass lovers now were like.. making out.. and being gays The face that Mike is making in this picture.. is the best face in the world. This picture would of been adorable but mikes face is blurry.. The Ring style.. :O I like how I look so happy here I don't have to pick my nose, I have Mike to do that for me Now all the sudden hes being a shy boy ALRIGHT.. THATS ALL.. SORRY I MADE YOU LOOK AT ALL THAT, but its important to me :] lol. ANYWAYS ... then we went up to foote and smoked some pot, got pretty damn high aye. then we went back home and layed in my room and watched tv for like 2 hours, we pretty much had a great linzy and mike day. Then sunday, mommy and tony went to church, so i had the house to myself, WOO, and mike came over, we bed gay, went and got high some more, then to coney island where i ate rice pudding and a BLT and somehow i was still hungry.. hah *Munches* Then he had to leave.. the worst part of my week is when he has to leave on sunday and i dont get to see him till next friday.. i wanted to cry. Then I went to tatis, I had some weed so we smoked it at the dugouts in the highschool, and all the sudden tatis like "omg.. a cop" and he had this mag light shining it at us, so we ran like fuck, and then we just kind of.. I don't know, we were blazed out of our minds. we went to aleahs, then we went to .. down the street and saw brent chris cassie scott and nina.. lol god.. ANYWAYS.. lets skip some.. Me brent natalie and tati all drove around some.. me and brent had a realy realy good conversation, realy good. hes a great friend of mine and i love him. then i stayed the night at tatis, smoked a bowl, then she fell asleep so i went and hungout with rocky for a little, smoked some resin... (who knows how to spell it.. suck it.) anyways.. and then he got tired, plus he had to work in the morning, so i went to bed and i woke up in the middle of the night and my ear hurt SOOOO bad, and it started to bleed... obviously i have a ear infection.. lol. ALRIGHT.. im done. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: D2boyfriend (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 14th, 2004
6:46 am	So yeah, last night was awesome, I got home from work, and effed around in my big gay basement then brittany came over, shes so hot... lol. then she left, and my mom was pretty drunk, so I put in my nifty ass MC hammer cd, and we were dancing in my kitchen to "too legit" it was halarious, i love that lady. Mike comes over today <3<3 i missed him so much. <3<3 TOO LEGIT.. TOO LEGIT TA QUIT.. Current Mood: awake Current Music: lazy confessions (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 13th, 2004
8:38 pm	I'm gay. and bored. :\ ( Read more... ) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: too legit - MC HAMMER (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:22 pm	my life has been so blam lately. all i do is work, go over tatis, get high, and talk to mike <3 hes coming to Lp tomorrow.. i can't wait, i missed him so much. <3 i'm feeling pretty okay lately. tati/mike <3 <3 Current Mood: content Current Music: the cardigans- love me love me SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME (5 Comments |Comment on this)
2:22 pm	my life has been so blam lately. all i do is work, go over tatis, get high, and talk to mike <3 hes coming to Lp tomorrow.. i can't wait, i missed him so much. <3 i'm feeling pretty okay lately. tati/mike <3 <3 Current Mood: content Current Music: the cardigans- love me love me SAY THAT YOU LOVE ME (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 8th, 2004
6:57 pm	SOMEONE is fucking with me real fucking bad. I got a new screen name.. hasamoldyroom ... add it and fucking DELETE and BLOCK shekilled cupid, who ever this person is, they fucked with all my shit, my livejournal AND aim. ill change it later, i dont have the patience right now. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
6:04 pm	I refuse to let myself become what i'm itching to become. I'm better than that. Hopefully, I'm moving. I don't want to go to LP schools, I don't want to live in LP, I think things here just got old. I've realised, nobody can ever trust anybody, and I'm my own best friend. Theres alot of people who when I get with, I tend to tell them alot of stuff that they shouldn't know about myself, and what it's come down to, the only person whos been true to me about keeping what i say to theirselves, is Mike. I'm not saying I don't have good friends, I'm not saying Mike is the only person whos been there for me, because we all know thats not true. All I'm saying is, from now on, my personal shit, that I honestly don't want anybody to know, but need to talk about it, that all goes to Mike. Saturday I spent the entire day in Westland with Mike. I feel very relieved now that I've seen how he lives day to day, relieved only that he has good friends, that care about him, and relieved theres no girls. But one thing, that I feel, is the only downfall in our relationship, the one thing that has kept me worried the entire time I've been with him, is the drugs, and the drinking. From the time we got there, to the time we left, all everyone did, was drink and do drugs. But I keep telling myself, that I shouldn't be so worried, and I don't want him to feel like i'm trying to control him, but I just want him to take consideration into the fact that it bothers me, alot. Anyways, lately I've had alot of time to myself. I kind of sit at home, and not care, and if people come over, they come over. In a way, I know it's my fault, I've lost happiness, but everyone goes through this, and noone ever asks for it. I'm a strong person, and the last thing I need to drama, so I push out everyone, and stop going out. People + going out = drama... most of the time. For a while there, my relationship with Mike had been failing, we were both unhappy, both never sober, both complaining, both feeling unwanted. I think him and I both did some stupid things during that time, I think we were both lost, both needing a break but too in love to take one. Funny how two people can love each other so much, that they hold on as tight as possible, as much as it hurts. But right now, I can say with pride, that him and I are problemless. and I promise to myself, I'll keep my chin up. Current Mood: stressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 5th, 2004
11:22 am	people like this completely change around how i feel. people like this arn't included in on what I said below. DeeznutzizaZlut: hey Auto response from sh ekilledc upid: brittanys. everyone read my journal. DeeznutzizaZlut: i did, and it displeases me greatly lish my dear DeeznutzizaZlut: you are one of the most complex and unique people ive ever had the joy to meet, when i think about you it makes me think alot about the world. and it makes me sad to think that someone who understands being thier own person so much(both physically and mentally) would want to isolate that individuality. DeeznutzizaZlut: im going to leave my phone number here and comment on your livejournal since i dont have yours, i would greatly appreciate it if you called me, becasue i really want to talk to you about this 313 792 12 83 or 792 12 83 (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
10:21 pm	i fucking hate peoople. i dont need ANYBODY in my life anymore. sure ill be lonely but its better than all this fucking drama, and all this fucking pain. i hate friends. i fucking hate people. i dont need people. THIS IS MY LAST JOURNAL ENTRY BECAUSE I DONT WANT ANYONE, ANYONE IN MY FUCKING BISNESS ANY FUCKING MORE, AND I DONT WANT TO BE SUCKED UP TO ANYONE ELSES BISNESS. noone call me. noone make plans with me. noone fucking talk to me. this is the last time i will ever trust anyone i thought i could trust. this is the LAST time i get sucked up in something, try to fucking help, and get fucked over. this is the last time i let anyone run to me with their shit. i have my own life to deal with. leave me the fuck alone. all of you. (25 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
9:44 pm	I wish brittany were a lesbian. she'd be MINE. Current Mood: ditzy Current Music: toot toot (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
12:16 pm	Lovers Turn Into Monsters I haven't updated my journal in a very long while. I was just thinking to myself, theres not very many people out there, that could love me for me inside, i mean alot of people are drawn to me because they think I'm hot, but then they hangout with me, and it only takes me like 2 hangouts, then i'm not shy, and then thats when they're like what the fuck, this bitch needs riddalin.. Anyways, Just a thought. Mike and I haven't been good at all. I haven't seen him for 3 weeks, and whenever we talk, we fight and fight. I do love him, and I know no matter what, I'm going to end up hurt, but this isn't what I need, I need someone to stand by me, I need someone who will comeover in the morning and not mind that I just woke up and I look like hell, someone who can see me more often then once a week, or month at that. I need someone to have fun with. someone I don't argue with. I just can't deal with long distance relationships, I guess sometimes love isn't enough. And I'm afraid this is soon coming to an end. I woke up this morning at 9:22 with HORRIBLE cramps, I could not even move, so I figured, great, I'm on my period, and went to the bathroom, sure enough I am, popped some midol and layed back down, I have the most horrible cramps in the world, they hurt so bad i curl in a little ball and moan while I punch my stomach. Brandon and Chewy came over a couple days ago, I don't know why, but I was being shy, I hate that so much, anyways, we went and seen Emory, I missed that sun of a gun. Emorys in quit your life now, if you didn't know. And they're playing at the local stage for worped tour, and they have a show on the 20th. :] go ? Lately I feel like I need something new in my life, something differnt, I don't know what, but I just feel like I have the same ol' things to do. I could use a good guy friend. Maybe I should move or something lol, I feel like there isn't anything here in LP for me anymore. Current Mood: confused Current Music: ladytron - seventeen (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 26th, 2004
4:10 pm	dude thats jesus (2:46:10 PM): YEAH britney murphy is fucking HAWT. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Auto response from sh ekilledc upid (2:46:10 PM): i wanna bang britney murphy. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- sh ekilledc upid (2:47:00 PM): god yes she is dude thats jesus (2:47:06 PM): id so hit that sh ekilledc upid (2:47:30 PM): yeah id bang that shit up, shed be dead when im be done dude thats jesus (2:47:39 PM): haha fuck yeah, she couldnt handle this shit sh ekilledc upid (2:47:47 PM): ;P dude thats jesus (2:47:54 PM): we will tag team her one day dude thats jesus (2:47:54 PM): lmao sh ekilledc upid (2:48:06 PM): yeah and tie her up dude thats jesus (2:48:13 PM): and gag her with an apple. sh ekilledc upid (2:48:20 PM): yeah yeah ! dude thats jesus (2:48:28 PM): i seen it in movies before, it looks cool. dude thats jesus (2:48:29 PM): :-X sh ekilledc upid (2:48:39 PM): hah totally dude thats jesus (2:48:46 PM): and after tying and gagging.. dude thats jesus (2:48:52 PM): it's time for some hardcore anal fucking. dude thats jesus (2:48:53 PM): 8-) sh ekilledc upid (2:49:18 PM): :-Did shove some arisol up there dude thats jesus (2:49:22 PM): WTF?! dude thats jesus (2:49:25 PM): whoa whoa whoa sh ekilledc upid (2:49:33 PM): :-[i saw it on cops dude thats jesus (2:49:36 PM): lmfao dude thats jesus (2:49:39 PM): are you serious? sh ekilledc upid (2:49:39 PM): :] sh ekilledc upid (2:49:50 PM): yeah dude, a gay guy got it stuck dude thats jesus (2:49:56 PM): LMFAO dude thats jesus (2:50:00 PM): thatd be so embarassing sh ekilledc upid (2:51:28 PM): he was calm about it.. "hello 911" .. "uh yeah, i got an aridol can stuck up my ass. " .. "um, well send an ambulance" .. "alright" .. (5 minutes later) "howd this happen ?" .. "well im gay, and my boyfriend left me." dude thats jesus (2:52:11 PM): WTF dude thats jesus (2:52:14 PM): thats so fucked up. sh ekilledc upid (2:52:19 PM): hah :] dude thats jesus (2:52:20 PM): i wouldn't call the police. dude thats jesus (2:52:25 PM): i'd just fucking kill myself. sh ekilledc upid (2:53:02 PM): id call my friends and be like "i have a problem.. come help me" and id spread my cheeks and be like "LOOK!" dude thats jesus (2:53:14 PM): LMFAO Current Music: lovers turn into monsters (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 20th, 2004
12:08 pm	HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMORY, I LOVE YOU TO DEATH emory <3 :] Current Mood: happy b-day emory! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 15th, 2004
9:32 pm	THIS ENTRY IS TO LET EVERYONE KNOW, EMORY MURPHY SHOULD BE LOVED, AND RESPECTED BY EVERYONE, THIS PERSON, IS JUST, ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE YOU MEET, AND JUST CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF. emory, doll, if ya read this, much love. much much much love. <3 anyways, the rest of you all suck :] (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 14th, 2004
1:26 pm	new pics kids ( Read more... ) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: kill the poor (11 Comments |Comment on this)
1:26 pm	new pics kids ( Read more... ) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: kill the poor (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
9:52 pm	I'm feeling so hopeless. I'm feeling alone. I feel ridiculous, because it's come to the point, where I'm not hiding anything I feel anymore. Maybe I'm having a moment, maybe I need to make sure I don't forget to take my medication, lol, but for whatever reason I'm feeling like this, I don't know how to change it, and I feel like I'm complaining, but realy if you knew me and knew what hell i've been put through lately, then you'd know why I am the way that I am, I don't feel like I have someone to run to when I need someone. I wish there was just someone, who I could run to or call, and they'd always be there. I wish I could go back to the days where I was secure, and felt safe to smile. Current Mood: hello ?? anyone? (Comment on this)
Monday, July 12th, 2004
9:19 pm	i want to explain myself for just ONE moment, to anyone who will listen, anyone who will listen. I can't even begin to tell my story to anyone, and hurts because I can't let my past go, because it's moving on with me, tomorrow is the day, where I will find out, the exact date, I will be able to possibly feel alive again. I no longer feel as if any body understands me, I no longer feel as if I'm known. I no longer feel as if I'm alive. I need something, to shake me up, I need just ONE day of fun, I want to have fun, I'm young ain't I ? All I do is work, and worry. I don't know how to talk right, I don't know how to smile, I don't know how to calm, I only know how to love. That's one thing I would get a gold metal in, And I think alot of people fail to see the kind of person I am inside, let alone take the time to find out. I don't expect someone to understand what I'm going through, or how I feel, how can anyone if I won't tell anyone? I would need someone to fix my type writer and find me a publisher, so I can write a book, to explain myself, and why I am the way I am. For now, I know whats occurring in my mind, and I know what is soon happening, but I am a strong person, and I'll suck up every last thought untill I explode. That's one thing I can say with confidence, I am a strong person, and the good out of this, is one day, I'll look back on everything I've ever been through, and nothing can get worse than this right now, so I'll be able to get through, anything. I've grown up at a young age, I've experianced things that even 80 year olds haven't. I've yet to say that I'm pleased or happy with my life, but I'm strong, remember. Current Mood: kill me Current Music: murderbydeath<3 (4 Comments |Comment on this)